Epic Battle

The Battle for her heart
Is being hard fought
By two forces
Dark
Light
Dark has won so many times before
It seems it will simply push the light out again
Shut the shades
Flip the switch
Blow out the flame
But Jesus is gathering the troops
To ride in and save his princess
From the cold, dark fortress
Satan has her locked up
All her pain
All her tears
All her doubt
All her anger
All of it
Jesus takes it all on
And slashes through Satan's front lines
An epic battle
For her soul
For her heart
Oh Lord.
Win it.
Be victorious O God

Courtesy of You

Ink black stars
Grace my hands
Courtesy of a bored day in Chem Class
Navy blue polish
On my nails
Courtesy of a dark mood
Scarred lips
I bit them so hard
To keep from kissing you
Aching lungs
From holding my breath
Every time you passed
Clouded eyes
From dreaming of you nightly
And wishing it all would be true
Running mascara
From tears that escaped
I tried to keep them in.
{i really did}
When you stand next to me, i get dizzy
When you say my name, i go silly
When you look at me, i blush
When you bite back a smile, i do the same
It's all courtesy of you

SUNSHINEY DAYS :)

Do you ever wake up on those sunshiney days?
Breathe that sunshiney air?
Taste that sunshiney taste?
Do you ever look up at that beautiful blue?
At the blue, do you stare?
It's the blue that colors "true"
Do you look out at the green in those trees?
And think oh how i want to be like that?
So green, so carefree?
Do you ever hold hands with a little boy?
And wonder at he stickiness you find there?
Oh for the little boys and their toys...
Do you ever braid your hair in pigtails?
And skip down the street?
In pigtails it's impossible to fail.
Oh to be three again
To appreciate the beauty of the sunshiney day, the blue sky, the green trees, and the marvel of little boys with sticky hands.

The Sleepy Things

The sleepy things tempt me
The soft pillow whispers
Rest your head
Only for a bit
The sleepy things tempt me
The cool, clean sheets beckon
Slide inside
For ten minutes
The sleepy things tempt me
The cozy comforter begs in silence
Wrap yourself up
And drift away
But i cannot rest
I cannot sleep
I have a paper to write
And a promise to keep
But the sleepy things tempt me
I sigh and give in
I slip my pajama pants on
And pull back the covers
Slowly, i sink into my bed
My loving bed
I close my eyes
And i'm away
Because the sleepy things tempted me
And i gave in

Easy....Hard....

Easy to run from pain
Easy to drown it again
Easy to say it doesnt matter
Easy to remain shattered
Hard to face the day
Hard to mean what you say
Hard to trust the creator
Hard to not push it til later
Easy to pretend
Easy to skip to the end
Easy to rip out the part you don't want
Easy to ignore a task that daunts
Hard to read through the whole book
Hard to pretend that i dont want a second look
Hard to look up when all you want to do is examine your shoes
Hard to admit it when you lose
Easy to close your eyes
Easy to give in to the lies
Easy to paint those nails black
Easy to take the broader track
Hard to expand your scope
Hard to learn how to cope
Hard to trust
Hard to not end up tasting dust
Easy to say it's all hard
Hard to pretend some parts aren't easy

Melt

you said hi
i think i just melted on the inside
somewhere deep down
where i thought i couldnt
i thought i was iced over
but your words shot a fiery arrow
into those icy depths of my heart
drip drip drip
i'm a puddle by the phone
when you called me up
just to hear my voice
oh baby you melt me
you dont even know
ha. oh you dont know
how your words do me in
oh baby
i love your voice
oh you melt me



:) SO CHEESY.

My Heart = Your's

This is a song i wrote on the bus this morning...

[Verse 1]
I'm shredding my heart
To use as confetti at the surprise party
She's throwing for you
Cuz it was my idea
And she stole it and pretends to know you
She puts time into it
But i put my heart into it
Literally

[Chorus]
My heart is your's
Please tell me you know that
Her heart belongs to her
And no one ele
But i know you
I save every memory of you inside
Oh babe, my heart is your's

[Verse 2]
We all yell surprise!
But she got the cake all wrong
Cuz you like chocolate but she likes vanilla
I tried to tell her baby
She plays her favorite song
And you're wearing your fake smile
I see a strand of my heart on your shoulder
I don't think my insides can get any colder

[Chorus]

[Verse 3]
I walk across the room to see you
She cuts me off and kisses your face
And everything i want to say and do
It's all lost, i wish it weren't the case
I walk out the back door
And the sky is crying to hide my tears
You follow me out back and tell me...

[Chorus]

erase me

erase me.
scrub that pink eraser across my face
i'm a big mess
i'd just rather cease to exist
poof
sweet escape
gone gone gone
til i'm no more
please?
i beg you God
press undo
or whatever it is you do
to rid me of me
i'm sick sick sick of me
tired tired tired of me
GO AWAY SELF
erase me

Choices.

Can we press pause?
Cuz i'm trying to figure out what's going on
This twist in the plot has me confused
She's crying and i don't see the cause
I see two boys
Like shadows on her heart
Reflected in her eyes
A single tear clings to her chin
Threatening to splash onto her shirt
I see a million tries
Colored outside the lines
Scribbled onto her skin in Sharpie
Ink that sinks deep and then washes with the first rain
The boys are still there
I can't see which one is her's
I press play again and the figures burst into life
She is torn, caught up in the middle.
So alike
So different
That wavering tear falls
The tiny pearl of salty water soaks into her collar
She scrubs her face
And the black sharpie smears across her face
One of those boys comes up and wipes her face with his hand
She catches it mid way across her cheek.
The other boy looks at her longingly and takes one step back
She begs using no words
Only her eyes betray her agony
She begs him to stay
He takes one look at her hand covering the imposter's
Shakes his head and turns around
No one sees the tears that course down his face
But i do.
I yell at her
He's the one
Choose him
Don't be stupid
My voice is hoarse, my throat hurts from my cries of warning
I look down and see a hand in mine.
I stare across the room to see that boy with tears coursing down his face
He's leaving.
My heart is confused
So torn i could scream
I will scream
I do scream
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
Kill me now
This agony is
Enough enough enough already!
I wish i was simply watching this on a screen
For then i would click the power button and watch the screen fade black
I wish i could eject the disc and forget the pain
I can't
It's my choice
Look up.
Look up.
Look up.
Don't miss out.
But either way i go
Do i miss out?
Two perfectly amazing guys
Which one?
Which way?
Which hand?
What do i say?
I hate
Choices.

Crazy Crazy Crazy

Crazy crazy crazy
Pull me in
Baby baby baby
I wanna be your
Lady lady lady
Will you please look at me?
Look Look Look
I knew we're not trapped in a
Book book book
But i still want that happy ending
Cuz its my heart that you took took took
Grab my hand and spin me
Around 'round 'round
Please introduce my lips to your's
Kiss kiss kiss
Cuz i'm Seventeen and still aint been kissed
Boy boy boy
I can promise you that my batting eyelashes aint no
Ploy ploy ploy
Will you please just ask me to dance
Ask ask ask
Oh come on its not that difficult of a
Task task task
In the rain
Spin spin spin
I feel so dizzy but this isnt the
End end end
Cuz it doesnt say happily ever after yet
Princess princess princess
You call me
Prince prince prince
You are.
Mine.