Black Hole Heart

I drew a picture of my heart today

But it was just a circle

Of empty space

I realized that there is a hole

A black one

Where my heart should be

It burns around the edges

It flames and tears and rips

If you push me too hard i will be all but sucked in

Black hole heart

And it hurts to hear his name

And it hurts to see his picture

And it hurts to hear his voice

Echoing down the line

So far away from mine

Don't touch me

You might rip the opening wider

Don't speak of him

It'll only make me clutch my chest tighter

Black hole heart.

Hug.Me.Now.

A world without hugs

Without physical touch

Would be fatal for me

So wrong to my heart

But here i am

Trapped in this glass

No warmth of skin on skin

No strength of arms wrapped up in

I smash my nose up against the window

Trying to get close to you

But your heat doesn't travel 

Through the barrier of time and space

Fingers reaching and banging up against the glass

And oh its a physical ache

This need that fills up my body and rushes through my veins

To have your arms around  me

Don't you ever go away again

My heart cries out for your's

It's so very far away

Separation anxiety.

Crying til the morning

Hiding the red-rimmed eyes behind the make up

Waterproof. Air tight. Heat resistant.

Cold-hearted.

I need a hug.

Running Like Mascara.

She's a broken little girl in her broken, broken world
Lipstick smudged, mascara running
Like the boy she sees right now
He is running, he is running far away, so far away
He has seen her inner person and is desperate not to stay
Hair is tangled, nails are mangled
As she bit them all night long
To keep from screaming, keep from screaming how she knew he did her wrong
Eyes are bloodshot and she's breaking, breaking up the line tonight
With her silent little whisper, she will kick, scream, and fight
Don't you dare think you can leave her
Lying there all by herself
She will love you, she will love you, if you give her all yourself
But you left her, yes you left her
You left her feeling so bereft
Little boy, scared boy, you must grow into a man
Someday you will look back and see the girl that stood
And watched you bravely while you sprinted far away
Just because the mascara is running, doesn't mean you follow suit
Wipe the tears with your fingers and kiss soundly at the bruise
Darling, how i love you and will never ever leave
Empty promises do no good here
In this land of make believe
She's a princess, she's a princess and your a wraith to steal her life
How dare you steal her heart now and refuse to make her your wife
Faster than i thought you could, you peeled out of here that night
And you took me, yes the little girl, by surprise
I am a broken little girl, in a broken broken world.
It kills me, yes it kills me.
But i know you broke your word.

Forever Kind of Love

Ok. this is super cheesy. o well. i'm determined to put up what i write. i wrote this after reading Breaking Dawn. ha. put me in a mood.

Verse 1:
Forever kind of love
Comes along once
And i push and shove
Through the crowds
To find you
You're my forever

Chorus:
Only you, only you
Love, you're all i have
Only me, only me
I see you in your forever eyes
Come and taste our love

Verse 2:
If you left, i would too
Come take my hand
I'll hide away with you
We will last
That's my one promise
Cuz you're my forever

Chorus

I "Don't" Miss You

i think it's a song. bear with me.

Verse 1:
I wrote it and locked it away
Love letters saved for another day
I folded it and carefully wrote your name
I look at our picture in that frame
Tears sneak down my cheeks
Where'd they come from?

Chorus:
I've been doing fine, really, i have
I don't miss you, no, not at all
I keep my chin up, i smile at all the right places
Then how come people pass in a blur of faces?
Where are you and why'd you go?
I miss you so

Verse 2:
I found myself dancing by myself yesterday
I was all wrapped up in a dream
You and your two left feet weren't there
You know, i shouldn't even care
But you are my love and part of me
We can't seem to say goodbye, can we?

Chorus

I don't miss yo
So i say
My eyes betray me
I miss you
And every part of me cries out
For you

Chorus