whispery feelings.

purple whispers
spin back and forth
to create that cotton candy sensation
in my mouth
sticky and closed
blink back the salty tears
and pour them back where they came from
blue eyes catch my attention
as i walk down the street
i nearly missed it
how could i miss it?
smoky dreams that escape from your lips
fingertips that touch
and we pretend we're holding hands
and we mouth all the words
pucker up and close your portals
to the outside
press your lips to the glass and blow it all away
hug the lamp post tightly
imagination in full gear
let's pretend
that we don't hear the sounds
that tear us apart
please don't go
whispers on skin that's as soft as can be
touch me deep.
pull me under with you
golds and mellow blues
escape from your lips
and i sing for joy
where you been
baby

delete.

self-restraint
keeps me from clicking on your name
i don't even go there
or i wouldn't come back
i hold back my fingers
from spilling my guts
all into that text box
and pressing send.
turn it off
delete

i'm cold.

I'm tired of missing you
And wondering
I'm tired of waiting
And pondering
So please just let me
Back inside

It's cold
I'm cold
I wish this weren't so
I miss you
I love you
And that's the truth of it
Can't get around it
Come home.

I'm sick of distance
And all the absences
I'm sick systems
That make it right
For you to leave me
Please open up

It's cold
I'm cold
I wish this weren't so
I miss you
I love you
And that's the truth of it
Can't get around it
Come home.

What Then?

When the love doesn't go away
What then?
When the pain seems to never end
What then?
When his face paints itself in the clouds
What then?
When you search for him in the crowds
What then?
When his arms hold you in your dreams
What then?
When you go and watch his favorite team
What then?
When you write him yet another song
What then?
When you start to feel he's been gone too long
What then?
When you don't have any answers
What then?

Headache.

My pulse throbs
The blood, pushing through my veins
Attempting to win this race
Straight to my heart.
My head pounds
A headache on the heels of this catastrophe
Swallow down the aspirin
Two and a tall glass of water
Wash away the pain
My eyes burn
Licking flames attack
And i try to blink it back
The water comes to extinguish them
Tears filled with salt
And the stinging still remains.
As i pull the pillow toward my aching head
I feel relief to lay it down.
Sleep away the pain
Don't come back again.

Contradiction?

Crooked smile.
Straight teeth.
Contradiction?
I think not.
Broken heart.
Big smile.
Contradiction?
I think not.
Bad boy.
Who plays the hero.
Contradiction?
I think not.

End of the World.

Cover your eyes
It's the end of the world.
Plug your ears
Or you'll hear the screaming.
Press your lips closed
Before you join in.
How did we get this far?
How did we let it spin so far out of control?
And we won't be fast enough.
Unless we're standing next to each other.
Burning. Drowning. Suffocating. Starving.
It's the end of the world.