airplanes v. stars

Don't leave me tonight
All alone in this high rise apartment
In this cold world
Where airplanes pretend to be stars
And we pretend that we can survive
With cold, packaged air
Breathed from a tube
Hello? Are you there?

Still.

if you would teach me to play guitar
your arm guiding mine
i would love you forever
if you laughed when i messed up
but kept pushing forward
i would love you forever
if you sang along with me
in that deep tone of your’s
i would love you forever
but here’s the secret
even if i never played it right
or if you never sang in key
i’d still love you forever.

because that's love

i met you over at the bookstore just the other day
we were squabbling over a book
i had it first
you said it was for your sister
she loved you and needed it
so you must take it
something in your eyes made me release
you left and something broke
i let you go
i sat there for a moment, in a bit of a daze
and then got up and ran out the glass doors into the dusk
i had to find you, the boy who would fight for a book for his sister
because that’s love.

ordinary love

you called me up
told me i was meeting you at the coffee shop on the corner
in half an hour
we had some books to read, some topics to discuss, some lattes to sip
i smiled and hung up
pulled on my jacket and scarf
and raised down the street
breath puffing in and out
in and out
you were there, face pressed against the glass
you smiled and gestured at the coffee you’d already ordered me
my favorite of course
we sat down, you had our book
fifth chapter this week
you said “i love you”
and immediately commented on the weather
my heart did a somersault
“what?”, i asked.
you looked puzzled and your eyes questioned my outburst
“what did you say just now?”
you laughed, “the weather is perfect for reading”
“no, before”
“oh that, i love you”
tears leaked of their own free will
you looked at me questioningly
“i’ve been starting our conversations like this for the past month”
because that’s where love is.
all wrapped up in the ordinary.

take me

take me away from this starless city
and into the place where the sea looks pretty
all silvery with the moon
take me away from this cold, hard town
and make my heart pound
all rushing in the night
oh please, oh please
baby baby baby
take me, pick me
choose me
and we’ll live for tonight
we’ll live for tonight
lead me into the place of your dreams
and sew me up, tighten the seams
so i am whole
lead me back to the past
where the light was cast
in the right places

oh please, oh please
baby baby baby
take me, pick me
choose me
and we’ll live for tonight
we’ll live for tonight

where'd you go?

i spin around and smile at you
my hair still in my eyes
true blue
forever
the kind of friendship that has you taking me by the arm
and escorting me into the dance
and we sway back and forth
{back and forth}
and you step on all my toes but one
and i don’t care
funny how my hand fits just so inside of your’s
and we seem carved from the same wood, you and i
{you and i}
step forward and a million back
wait?
where’d you go?

all i ask

Thoughts of you make the tears finally escape
As i imagine you in your old shorts and t-shirt
Walking with me beneath the sky
It was just me, you, and the sky that night
It was cold and you were there
I was just a girl but you still cared
Who am i to you now?
Who does this with you now?
All i ask.

Schoolday Dreams

i fell asleep today
slumped into my folded arms on the desk
silent classroom full of whispers
dreams that came to me
half formed
fully formed
in and out of my thoughts
each held a semblance of you
one or two came with pain
but i shook them away
and let the dream dust settle in
happily out of my misery
i kept my lids lowered for a bit longer
and then that shrill ringing in my head
grew every louder
and i knew
the dream was over
raised the blinds, shook the sleep from my eyes, picked up my books
and left that room
full of dreamdust
blinking and winking in the sunlight
School? Huh?

your beat.

i’ve been clawing and scratching
harder and harder
and the blood is warm and wet
as it seeps through my cotton shirt
red stains over my heart
i tried my best to scratch your name off
but who knew that i would keep bleeding
even afterwards
but you’re still there
impenetrable
your name
you’d think i had a heart of stone and you’d carved it there
permanent
but my heart is very much flesh
and it falters and fails
but your beat is still there