I wish it were you...

He's gorgeous
I whisper inside my head
Cuz even in my head
The thought can't be loud

You look different to me today
I see your eyes from behind your glasses
Brown and deep
They seem to search me

Your sleeves pushed up
Your hair messed up
Bare foot and comfortable
In your own space

You won't look at me
Unless i look away
Then i catch your eyes
And hold them for a second

Sitting five feet away
But you seem to radiate heat
And i feel my cheeks darken
At the thought of you being so near

Not like the other night
When you sat twenty feet away
The darkened room had me
Looking down the row at your profile

I wished you were there
To fill the empty seat
Next to me
To hold my hand during the scary parts

But that's not how you work
You wouldn't hold my hand if my life was dependent on it
I want you so badly
To be the last guy i like

Someone snaps their fingers
Twice in front of my eyes
I blink back the dreams
And see things realistically

Poof. There you go
Right out of my future
You couldn't be with me
Never with me

And the thought has me walking out of the room
Headed for the bathroom
With its large supply of tissue
To help sop up the steady flow of tears down my cheeks

I wish it were you
I wish i was her
Whoever she is
She gets you and i'm jealous