Loneliness

loneliness comes back and knocks on my door
i always open it up and let him in
he makes himself at home in the bed next to me
as i sleep in the silence and the shadows
he whispers into my dreams
erasing everyone else from my heart
i have no where else to turn
loneliness pretends to be a friend
but then pulls out the knife
and stabs me in the back
the puncture has become a slot
where he can easily pull the knife in and out
jerking my heart strings and cutting my confidence
loneliness pulls out his dark lamp
and paints shadows of varying shades of grey
in the window panes of my soul
mixing colors like a master painter
he manages to create a hole so black
that it sucks in all my hope
in a single gulp
shadows that i can’t escape as they cling to me
all alone on the bed
just me and loneliness.

Loneliness Personified

Loneliness Personified

Sketching the sky and the clouds and the sun
The paper and the pencil becoming one
She sighs and brushes her thumb across those longing lips
Blinking slowly and with precision
She pushes hard on the pencil
Certain of where her lines will take her
The shape of his hand comes easily
Memorized be hers
The rest of him follows quickly after
Sitting on a bench
Emptied of joy
Pausing to pick up her cup
She sips long—enjoying the icy cool
Of that lemonade that slides down her burning throat
Her soul knows what her heart doesn’t yet
A deep knowledge of the loneliness that isn’t just visiting
An unwanted guest that has taken up permanent residence in her guest room
She knew she should never have made it feel welcome
Breakfast and hot showers and conversation at the dinner table
She should have made it sleep in the garage or on that lumpy couch
So it would be anxious to leave
A sigh leaves her chest
Emptying her lungs and heart
Setting the glass down on the edge of the table
She takes up her pencil again
A new sheet of paper
A new truth to be laid forth (full or words she’ll never say)

Picking at the lifeless strings
He attempts to bring the beauty in him back to life
But it seems it is dead and gone and refusing to return
The glistening wood of his guitar is fading
As his eyes lose that shimmer that is inspiration
His voice manages to croak out her name
A half-whisper at dusk
It holds all the desperation that has eaten his heart alive
His hand tingles and he stretches his fingers
Slowly in and slowly out
The sudden warmth found there catches him off guard
It is gone as suddenly as it came
Once again the loneliness makes itself at home
Looking over his shoulder as he tries to write
The one letter that could change his life
Loneliness makes it clear that it won’t work
So he drops the pen
A half-written word and a few smudges
Are all he has to show for effort
Returning to his instrument
He longs to play for her again
Instead he takes it and puts it away
Locks the closet shut and sits on the cold tile in the kitchen
The ache in his bones is aggravated
But he likes the pain
Almost numb
Loneliness taps him on the shoulder and strikes up a mournful band
And he can’t stop the tears this time
A new sorrow to be sung
A new truth to be wrung (from his wash rag heart)

She packs up her pencils and pads of paper
Strewn around her in the park
She folds her picnic blanket
The time it takes her shows how it pains her
Every movement takes effort
Moving too quickly could easily break her
Dragging herself home
She walks up the steps and just stands there
The sigh that has been her constant companion makes its way from her chest
Loneliness answers the door
Assures her that there’s not fire at the hearth
Or tea kettle on the stove
There’s no warm blanket to be found
And the cold wind will surely blow through the cracks in her façade
Loneliness says this all with his grey mask in place
He hands her the mask he’s chosen for her
She takes it
Knowing she has no other choice
Tying the dull string in a knot behind her head
She resigns herself to this future
A new well of pain to be dug up
A new lie to be pinned up (in her hall of lonely fame)

He lays his head against the pane of glass in the front room
He watches another colorless sunset
Frost is clinging to his portal
As he breathes and realizes his breath is cold too
A product of the ice that has taken to his heart
Loneliness has become the host and he the guest
In a house full of grey water that laps at his ankles at all times
A bed that is always slightly damp with blankets that smell of mold
The cold can’t be edged away
And loneliness lets him know that it will always be this way
A tired acceptance fills his soul
He sits in his chair
Praying for sleep
Praying for her
Praying for the pain to someday be less
Just a fraction less
A new day to dawn
A new ending to be drawn (from the deck loneliness has dealt)

Two people who let the loneliness
Creep inside and steal their joy
They seemed to find it in every dust-filled corner
They blamed it for their problems
And decided it was right
Living with loneliness instead of each other
Though both sides of the bed were full
They couldn’t see each other anymore
Just the masks that loneliness had chosen for them to wear
And they obeyed it.

Arches and Angels

Arches and Angles
Demons and Angels
Sing twisted melodies in my head
They choose to torment
That which is long dead
Passion and Apathy
Hatred and Sympathy
I’m scared of your empathy
As i’m upside down
And right side up
My mask settles into place
Held with bolts of iron
Etched, hollow eyes
Steeled against the cold
That emanates from that heart
In that body over there
Feebly beating, as if it’s alive
Carved, a shallow smile
To give the world what it wants to see
Freedom and Liberty
Ensnare us as we are slaves
To what they owe us
Justice and Mercy
Satisfied and Thirsty
For that twisted melody
Filters through my mind
As i pick out the crazed harmony
Demons and Angels
Hidden in Arches and Angles.

iloveyou

Pushing the pedals
With all of her might
Just a little bit faster
And she might could catch him
Air slices through her heart
Pulling her hair
Hard.
The pain makes all the details—
Acute.
The love—
Stronger.
The desperation—
Burning.
The resolve—
Solid.
The need—
Thirsty.
Breathing, sucking in the vital air
Her greedy lungs refuse to give out
Wheels turn on the broken road
Eating the miles with surprising hunger
She must get there, she must tell him
Before it’s too late, before she falls
And scrapes her knee
Lest she plunge over the handlebars
And shatter that beating heart of her’s
The street is familiar
With houses of yellow and blue
And lawns of green
She lurches to a stop
And trips up the walk to the door
She stands there, willing her heart to finish its race
‘Slow down, slow down. You’ll betray us both’
Her hand reaches for the doorbell and withdraws
Several times
Courage pulses through her like a drug
With an air of abandon, she punches that button
Victoriously
Footsteps. ‘I’ll get it’
Despite the nerves, a smile steals over her lips
The sound of that voice
Shivers. Goosebumps. Butterflies.
He swings open the door
Eyes confused, lips bemused
He leans in the door frame
No words.
‘Yes?’ Confusion and apprehension whisper in his voice
The words beg her for release
She just shrugs and becomes an expert on his front porch
He smiles and looks at her bent head
Finally, her head snaps up
‘iloveyou’
Rushed. Pushed out in a single breath.
She turns and runs as fast as she can
Bicycle wheels traded for legs of flesh
Dumbstruck. He stands, stupidly.
His mom wanders to the door
‘Who was it?’
He looks at her. His eyes light up.
He runs. He sprints. He flies after her.
There is no escape
His legs are longer. His heart, stronger.
His love, mad and frantic.
He’s on her heels now
Still she runs
He runs in front of her and stops
Tears, coursing down those flushed and oh so beautiful cheeks
‘I love you too’
Relief. Joy. Out-of-her-mind excitement
‘I have all along’

live.

and when i get into my daydream place

i can’t return whole

part of my heart is left there

in your invisible hands

you live there,

in my daydream place

i revisit the scenes and still-frames

that gather dust in my heart

every single moment

of every single day

and each day i leave hopes and dreams

in that big pile at your feet

hoping that my next offering

will bring you to life

that you can move into real life

rather than remaining

a hollow shadow that lurks

in the corners of my heart and soul at night

breathe the daylight, dearest

airplanes v. stars

Don't leave me tonight
All alone in this high rise apartment
In this cold world
Where airplanes pretend to be stars
And we pretend that we can survive
With cold, packaged air
Breathed from a tube
Hello? Are you there?

Still.

if you would teach me to play guitar
your arm guiding mine
i would love you forever
if you laughed when i messed up
but kept pushing forward
i would love you forever
if you sang along with me
in that deep tone of your’s
i would love you forever
but here’s the secret
even if i never played it right
or if you never sang in key
i’d still love you forever.

because that's love

i met you over at the bookstore just the other day
we were squabbling over a book
i had it first
you said it was for your sister
she loved you and needed it
so you must take it
something in your eyes made me release
you left and something broke
i let you go
i sat there for a moment, in a bit of a daze
and then got up and ran out the glass doors into the dusk
i had to find you, the boy who would fight for a book for his sister
because that’s love.

ordinary love

you called me up
told me i was meeting you at the coffee shop on the corner
in half an hour
we had some books to read, some topics to discuss, some lattes to sip
i smiled and hung up
pulled on my jacket and scarf
and raised down the street
breath puffing in and out
in and out
you were there, face pressed against the glass
you smiled and gestured at the coffee you’d already ordered me
my favorite of course
we sat down, you had our book
fifth chapter this week
you said “i love you”
and immediately commented on the weather
my heart did a somersault
“what?”, i asked.
you looked puzzled and your eyes questioned my outburst
“what did you say just now?”
you laughed, “the weather is perfect for reading”
“no, before”
“oh that, i love you”
tears leaked of their own free will
you looked at me questioningly
“i’ve been starting our conversations like this for the past month”
because that’s where love is.
all wrapped up in the ordinary.

take me

take me away from this starless city
and into the place where the sea looks pretty
all silvery with the moon
take me away from this cold, hard town
and make my heart pound
all rushing in the night
oh please, oh please
baby baby baby
take me, pick me
choose me
and we’ll live for tonight
we’ll live for tonight
lead me into the place of your dreams
and sew me up, tighten the seams
so i am whole
lead me back to the past
where the light was cast
in the right places

oh please, oh please
baby baby baby
take me, pick me
choose me
and we’ll live for tonight
we’ll live for tonight

where'd you go?

i spin around and smile at you
my hair still in my eyes
true blue
forever
the kind of friendship that has you taking me by the arm
and escorting me into the dance
and we sway back and forth
{back and forth}
and you step on all my toes but one
and i don’t care
funny how my hand fits just so inside of your’s
and we seem carved from the same wood, you and i
{you and i}
step forward and a million back
wait?
where’d you go?

all i ask

Thoughts of you make the tears finally escape
As i imagine you in your old shorts and t-shirt
Walking with me beneath the sky
It was just me, you, and the sky that night
It was cold and you were there
I was just a girl but you still cared
Who am i to you now?
Who does this with you now?
All i ask.

Schoolday Dreams

i fell asleep today
slumped into my folded arms on the desk
silent classroom full of whispers
dreams that came to me
half formed
fully formed
in and out of my thoughts
each held a semblance of you
one or two came with pain
but i shook them away
and let the dream dust settle in
happily out of my misery
i kept my lids lowered for a bit longer
and then that shrill ringing in my head
grew every louder
and i knew
the dream was over
raised the blinds, shook the sleep from my eyes, picked up my books
and left that room
full of dreamdust
blinking and winking in the sunlight
School? Huh?

your beat.

i’ve been clawing and scratching
harder and harder
and the blood is warm and wet
as it seeps through my cotton shirt
red stains over my heart
i tried my best to scratch your name off
but who knew that i would keep bleeding
even afterwards
but you’re still there
impenetrable
your name
you’d think i had a heart of stone and you’d carved it there
permanent
but my heart is very much flesh
and it falters and fails
but your beat is still there

Nonverbal

Tell me i'm not allowed to leave you again
It would do my heart good
To hear those words that seem to stick in your throat
Why not?
I see them clearly in your eyes
Spell them out clearly in the air above us
All neatly spaced and thoughtfully placed
Not that hard
Look, i'll help you
I....
Love...
You....
That's right.
And you can come up with the missing part
I know you can do it
You've proved it to me
I listened to your dreams
Eavesdropped on your thoughts
Or was it that you posted them clearly
In the billboard found easily
In your actions
Or those baby blues that are so eloquent
Laughter bubbles up
To think that you can describe how you feel
In every way but verbally
It's ok.
I've got you.

Scatterbrained.

A gentle breeze that moves me there
And pulls me here
To where it is
The sun and the shine
Hope is resting
In your palm
Sing to me your song
Each note fills my heart
A little bit more
Just a little bit more
But you cannot sing
To save your life
Funny how the little details
Escape my notice
In the crowded days
Brimming
Capable hands hold the orb
That brings such joy
To your face and mine
Dust the fingertips across it
And then trace my cheek
To leave a bit of dust there
To remind me when we lived there
In the land of all those dreams
Ah love
Funny how it all comes back so quickly

whispery feelings.

purple whispers
spin back and forth
to create that cotton candy sensation
in my mouth
sticky and closed
blink back the salty tears
and pour them back where they came from
blue eyes catch my attention
as i walk down the street
i nearly missed it
how could i miss it?
smoky dreams that escape from your lips
fingertips that touch
and we pretend we're holding hands
and we mouth all the words
pucker up and close your portals
to the outside
press your lips to the glass and blow it all away
hug the lamp post tightly
imagination in full gear
let's pretend
that we don't hear the sounds
that tear us apart
please don't go
whispers on skin that's as soft as can be
touch me deep.
pull me under with you
golds and mellow blues
escape from your lips
and i sing for joy
where you been
baby

delete.

self-restraint
keeps me from clicking on your name
i don't even go there
or i wouldn't come back
i hold back my fingers
from spilling my guts
all into that text box
and pressing send.
turn it off
delete

i'm cold.

I'm tired of missing you
And wondering
I'm tired of waiting
And pondering
So please just let me
Back inside

It's cold
I'm cold
I wish this weren't so
I miss you
I love you
And that's the truth of it
Can't get around it
Come home.

I'm sick of distance
And all the absences
I'm sick systems
That make it right
For you to leave me
Please open up

It's cold
I'm cold
I wish this weren't so
I miss you
I love you
And that's the truth of it
Can't get around it
Come home.

What Then?

When the love doesn't go away
What then?
When the pain seems to never end
What then?
When his face paints itself in the clouds
What then?
When you search for him in the crowds
What then?
When his arms hold you in your dreams
What then?
When you go and watch his favorite team
What then?
When you write him yet another song
What then?
When you start to feel he's been gone too long
What then?
When you don't have any answers
What then?

Headache.

My pulse throbs
The blood, pushing through my veins
Attempting to win this race
Straight to my heart.
My head pounds
A headache on the heels of this catastrophe
Swallow down the aspirin
Two and a tall glass of water
Wash away the pain
My eyes burn
Licking flames attack
And i try to blink it back
The water comes to extinguish them
Tears filled with salt
And the stinging still remains.
As i pull the pillow toward my aching head
I feel relief to lay it down.
Sleep away the pain
Don't come back again.

Contradiction?

Crooked smile.
Straight teeth.
Contradiction?
I think not.
Broken heart.
Big smile.
Contradiction?
I think not.
Bad boy.
Who plays the hero.
Contradiction?
I think not.

End of the World.

Cover your eyes
It's the end of the world.
Plug your ears
Or you'll hear the screaming.
Press your lips closed
Before you join in.
How did we get this far?
How did we let it spin so far out of control?
And we won't be fast enough.
Unless we're standing next to each other.
Burning. Drowning. Suffocating. Starving.
It's the end of the world.

Suitcase

Can i crawl inside your suitcase?
If i squeeze tight just enough?
Can you pack me in your bag?
And zip me right up?
For i am ready to see the world
If only by your side
And i’ll be lonely
Pretty baby
If you fly without me tonight

Sometimes it strikes me.

Walking against the rain, the drops seemed to penetrate her skin. They sank into her blood, running cold. Wet hair plasters to her face and she bites her lip. There’s a figure up the road, headed her way. She prays that they can’t distinguish the tears from the rain. Hopefully, the red-rimmed eyes won’t give her away. Glancing upwards, she thanks God for the disguise. {gray skies} Fingers stretching at his side, he mechanically picks up one foot and puts it in front of the other. Just keep walking. He wishes he could find her. He’s been looking for hours in the rain. He knew she’d be crying today. Wiping the water film from his eyelashes, he blinks. A figure is coming toward him. Same height. Hair color? Check. Defeated posture? Yes. It’s her. {heavy clouds} A groan breaks through her clogged throat. The deepest sound of defeat. Her limbs shake. Her muscles refuse to respond to her brain. She keeps walking forward. “Turn around, run” she thinks. Funny how her muscles seem oblivious to her pointed command. The teeth sink even further into her bottom lip. Metallic taste. A new tear joins the downpour. {give in} He speeds up. He wills her to lift her chin and meet his eyes. He needs to see those eyes. Desperation. His legs make jerky movements as they attempt to transition into his new preferred mode of transportation: run. Heart pumping, he prays that she’ll take him. oh he loves her. {rain} Don’t love me. She exudes this sentiment. she hopes it will make him turn around. but she knows it won’t. she know’s he won’t. she falls to her knees. it seems her brain has lost control over her body completely. malfunction. {breaking} he reaches her side as she is falling. He falls with her and wraps his arms around her. Or, he tries. But the pieces are so small. He gasps and feels his heart crumble at the edges. One heart. Breaking.

All Over Again

Tripping along
Heels pulled up over my head
And i'm falling in love
All over again
Dancing around
Arms spread wide
Just to catch the sun
All over again

Suddenly my world falls into place
And i can trace your fingerprints
All over my newly healed heart
Stronger than ever
My love for you is leaking from my every pore
Screamin', I love you

Laughing outloud
Head thrown back
I defy the black
All over again

Suddenly my world falls into place
And i can trace your fingerprints
All over my newly healed heart
Stronger than ever
My love for you is leaking from my every pore
Screamin', I love you

You're the only one who does this
The only one to make me crazy
Out of my mind with love
All over again.

my heart.

Close your eyes
Concentrate on the core, the very center of the hurt
Where does it lie?
"My Heart"
Obvious answer
Look again
Oh...
"Your Heart"

Trying to Let Go.

Romantic movies
Don't do me any good
When every hero has your eyes
And every good guy has that smile
The one that looks like your's
Reading books
Doesn't do me any good
When Darcy has your face
And Edward sounds like you
On every stinkin' page
Listening to music
Breaks my heart
When every song sings your name
And reminds me of that place
The place that only we know
Walking the streets
Of this city
Searching the faces for your's
I know you aren't here
Lying in bed
Slipping into dreams
Searching the faces for your's
I pray you aren't here
For i'm practicing obedience
Trying to let go.

i vote no.

Pink paper hearts
Tissue paper hearts might i add
Easily ripped
Easily forgotten
Candy hearts
Billboards for cliches
Please don't kiss me unless you mean it
And who thought of, "email me"
It's lame. Bury it.
Dead roses.
You tried but the petals are still bruised
So just forget Valentine's Day
It's forced
It's painful
It's not worth it.

NEED.

How do i tell you that i NEED you
And not sound like a pathetic girl in a lame movie?
How do i tell you that i would've NEEDED you anyway
Even if i didn't like you
How do i tell you that this NEED is not fake or made up
Without scaring you away?
I NEED you
That's not gonna fade or change
Even if you don't NEED me too

Please?

Don't pat me on the back
Saying, "it'll all be ok"
Hold me tight in your arms
And tell me it's ok to hurt
Don't shy away from my tears
And awkwardly hand me a tissue
Cup your hands under my chin
And catch the droplets with your sleeve
Please don't tell me something i already know
It sounds so cliche and lame
Don't say anything--just be there
Let me rest in you for a bit
Don't feel like you have to cry with me
You can be a rock for all i care
Let me grasp onto you in my sea of emotion
And when i trip along across the ground
Hold my hand, fingers grasped tightly
Please?

spell it out for me.

e.x.p.l.o.s.i.o.n. cuz each letter deserves its own sentence. sensation of bones snapping from the pressure.the weight that hangs over me. ripping. shredding. tearing. pulling. muscles. bones. my heart. i whisper, "gone". and the air is knocked out of me. i'm knocked out of my chair. the tile is cool on my cheek. i feel my heartbeat echoing through the floor. r.e.v.e.r.b.e.r.a.t.e. my teeth chatter and i'm cold. i shrug into a sweatshirt. the one that's not your's. hugging myself. my arms aren't long enough. or strong enough. and they're not your's. the definition of pain floats around in my head. dictionaries don't know anything. define it all you want. but that's not how it plays out. real life is vivid. and real. and hurts. h.e.a.r.t.b.r.e.a.k. i'm not emo. i'm just emotional. so deal with it. i'll paint my nails navy blue and pretend its black if i want to. so get off my case. teeth clenched. hands in fists. i strain every muscle in my body, waiting for the wave of pain to hit. and then i'm heels over head over heels over head. ocean of pain. i wash up on the shore. and there's not relief. it just slams into me again. and again. and again. and again. oh just kill me now. but my heart keeps on beating. even though it's shattered. shocking. it survives. b.r.e.a.k.d.o.w.n. tears beat against my eyelids. clawing their way out of my eyes. they sneak down my cheeks. i'm too tired to wipe them away. too tired to care. or to announce their escape. they flow to my chin and drip off onto my hoodie. they ooze between my fingers and flow from my finger tips. drip. drip. drip. they don't stop. long past when i'm conscious of them. puddle jumping. running in the rain. memories with you. and the tears fall harder. stinging my skin. e.x.h.a.u.s.t.i.o.n. keeping on this mask takes work. plastic smile that isn't quite right. but it will do. it will have to. hollow eyes and a toothy grin. tin laughter. so fake. and i think of you. always telling me to be me. to be real. to place my identity in Christ. did i hear it? yes. and i have been me. but now. who am i? my identity is in Christ. and that's all i have left. you've stolen every other piece. our pinky promise is null and void. and the strongest promise of all is destroyed. i miss my best friend.

Air

Breathing?

Huh?

Seriously?

You expect me to breathe without my oxygen?

What an unreasonable request!

How dare you?!

Yet i know i'll attempt

To do it all alone

When I should get my air from God

Why am i such a girl?

I need an inhaler.

Not Allowed.

I'm not allowed to talk to you

I'm not allowed to see your face

I'm not allowed to speak your name

Or ask for your embrace

I no longer can call you on the phone

And no marathon emails

I can no longer check up on my best friend

I'm not allowed to even call you mine

Silence and space in between

Getting over you takes longer than a day

And a day is what i'll survive

The rest will drag and drag

I'm not allowed to send you a quick message 

To let you know i'm praying or dying

I have to wait til the worst is over

Til my heart can beat without your name echoing

Well, when you suggested this prolonged silence

I nodded once and let the tears fill up my eyes

I steeled myself for the pain to hit my heart

And it slammed into me like a wave in the ocean

Beat against me and knocked me off my feet

Tumbling head over heels over head over heels

And then i washed up on shore

I couldn't move. 

I think my heart is broken

I can't move.

Who knows when i'll be able to get up again

I took down all the pictures of us on the walls of my cell

I deleted all our songs and hastily hid your notes with the pictures

Far away from this room that now seems to be a prison

No light gets through the bars

I had all these hopes and dreams

I can't have them anymore

I'm not allowed and the contraband simply appears in my heart

Daydreams and the night time ones are off limits

I think my heart is broken.

I think it is.

Really and truly

I'm surprised it still manages to beat

My face can find some semblance of a smile

Somewhere

But my muscles don't feel like wasting energy on something i don't mean

I'm not allowed to talk to you?

What?

I....

can't.

Black Hole Heart

I drew a picture of my heart today

But it was just a circle

Of empty space

I realized that there is a hole

A black one

Where my heart should be

It burns around the edges

It flames and tears and rips

If you push me too hard i will be all but sucked in

Black hole heart

And it hurts to hear his name

And it hurts to see his picture

And it hurts to hear his voice

Echoing down the line

So far away from mine

Don't touch me

You might rip the opening wider

Don't speak of him

It'll only make me clutch my chest tighter

Black hole heart.

Hug.Me.Now.

A world without hugs

Without physical touch

Would be fatal for me

So wrong to my heart

But here i am

Trapped in this glass

No warmth of skin on skin

No strength of arms wrapped up in

I smash my nose up against the window

Trying to get close to you

But your heat doesn't travel 

Through the barrier of time and space

Fingers reaching and banging up against the glass

And oh its a physical ache

This need that fills up my body and rushes through my veins

To have your arms around  me

Don't you ever go away again

My heart cries out for your's

It's so very far away

Separation anxiety.

Crying til the morning

Hiding the red-rimmed eyes behind the make up

Waterproof. Air tight. Heat resistant.

Cold-hearted.

I need a hug.

Running Like Mascara.

She's a broken little girl in her broken, broken world
Lipstick smudged, mascara running
Like the boy she sees right now
He is running, he is running far away, so far away
He has seen her inner person and is desperate not to stay
Hair is tangled, nails are mangled
As she bit them all night long
To keep from screaming, keep from screaming how she knew he did her wrong
Eyes are bloodshot and she's breaking, breaking up the line tonight
With her silent little whisper, she will kick, scream, and fight
Don't you dare think you can leave her
Lying there all by herself
She will love you, she will love you, if you give her all yourself
But you left her, yes you left her
You left her feeling so bereft
Little boy, scared boy, you must grow into a man
Someday you will look back and see the girl that stood
And watched you bravely while you sprinted far away
Just because the mascara is running, doesn't mean you follow suit
Wipe the tears with your fingers and kiss soundly at the bruise
Darling, how i love you and will never ever leave
Empty promises do no good here
In this land of make believe
She's a princess, she's a princess and your a wraith to steal her life
How dare you steal her heart now and refuse to make her your wife
Faster than i thought you could, you peeled out of here that night
And you took me, yes the little girl, by surprise
I am a broken little girl, in a broken broken world.
It kills me, yes it kills me.
But i know you broke your word.

Forever Kind of Love

Ok. this is super cheesy. o well. i'm determined to put up what i write. i wrote this after reading Breaking Dawn. ha. put me in a mood.

Verse 1:
Forever kind of love
Comes along once
And i push and shove
Through the crowds
To find you
You're my forever

Chorus:
Only you, only you
Love, you're all i have
Only me, only me
I see you in your forever eyes
Come and taste our love

Verse 2:
If you left, i would too
Come take my hand
I'll hide away with you
We will last
That's my one promise
Cuz you're my forever

Chorus

I "Don't" Miss You

i think it's a song. bear with me.

Verse 1:
I wrote it and locked it away
Love letters saved for another day
I folded it and carefully wrote your name
I look at our picture in that frame
Tears sneak down my cheeks
Where'd they come from?

Chorus:
I've been doing fine, really, i have
I don't miss you, no, not at all
I keep my chin up, i smile at all the right places
Then how come people pass in a blur of faces?
Where are you and why'd you go?
I miss you so

Verse 2:
I found myself dancing by myself yesterday
I was all wrapped up in a dream
You and your two left feet weren't there
You know, i shouldn't even care
But you are my love and part of me
We can't seem to say goodbye, can we?

Chorus

I don't miss yo
So i say
My eyes betray me
I miss you
And every part of me cries out
For you

Chorus